[EDIT 10/20/09] Lost the absolute last vestiges of my eye's virginity today since we had a male model come in during anatomy. All I can say is that now I know why they are referred to as hot dogs.

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This journal contains a few unrelated topics. I apologize in advance for the messy and disorganized writing since I just want to get these things out.

My eyes lost their last vestiges of virginity today! It was my first time seeing someone else naked....actually, I never actually looked at -ahem- 'myself' before, if you know what I mean... so it was a big step for me. It was the first nude anatomy class that we had and also my first time working with a professional model. I guess that there will be a first to everything~

On a sadder note, my (technically, my elder brother's but who really cares?) two goldfishes died on 10.5.09. They were my first 'real' pets since I don't count the one that the grocers gave us when we were small. It died after one day anyway. In any case, even though I was not really attached to those fishes, not as much as my siblings, I was still really sad when they died. I discovered Kuro (the smaller 'male?' fish) unmoving and stuck behind the sponge-like filter. I guess that he didn't want Shiro (the larger 'female?' fish) to see him die since it looked like he was trying to hide himself... ;-; Shiro was also hiding in the log... We noticed that they were growing these black spots for the past few days but we took no notice. We just thought that they were part of their growth but now, my brother thinks that those were the things that killed them. When Kuro died, Shiro was not faring much better. It was hiding in the log and won't respond much. We saw that it's fins were kind of... rotten. As in, bits of it were missing. I knew that it wasn't from fighting with Kuro since it was usually Shiro who did the chasing. In any case, Shiro was on its belly and my sister and I saw the saddest thing: Shiro tried in vain to float. She tried swimming upwards but her fins prevented her from doing so...so she just kind of gave up... and fell back to the bottom feebly... I wanted to cry. So it was unanimous amongst us when we decided that we will flush Shiro along with the dead Kuro. Since she was going to die anyway you know... My brother had to do all of the work... my sister saw him trying to hide his tears; this action from him makes him seem the most human to me than any other time and I feel a bit more connected to him.

I have a load of shit to do for the whole remainder of the marking period. I have this English project that I haven't exactly started, due Tuesday. I have an art project that I have to finish before the end of the marking period which is ending in about two weeks. Not to mention, I am falling behind in my classwork in art. That is in addition to the ADDITIONAL homework that he gave us which is also due by the end of the marking period. This gives me bad memories due to my falling behind in art class at the end of the year last year but that is another story for another time. I have two tests on Friday: English and Spanish. Not to mention, a AP US History test on the next Friday. To make it short: I'm screwed. I don't know if I am going to finish all of these things so I think that I would just stop typing now and go work on my homework.